After the Momentum festival it kinda gave me the courage (is that the right word?) to have a pop at redrafting "Sing, Sing" so I did a 2 day redraft session and took it to a workshop on sunday to read it aloud and see where things are going wrong.
Anyway - it did help, but a bit of me thought I perhaps shouldnt have bothered as i got the whole "ripple" effect again where everybody erupts and begins arguing... I wasnt really quite sure why, but my play defo had something to do with it and they all started rowing about it and stuff. it felt a bit like when your a kid and your parents argue and your stuck in the middle wanting them to stop...
and now I'm an adult i did the most adult thing I could do to take control of the situation and got very pissed and shitfaced-ly drunk!
Hense... I was sick last night. I had a second peice to read, a peice of prose which I got some other guys to read out for me and the nervousness of something read combined with the booze made me throw up. friend of mine tried to be "gentlemanly" and hold my dreads out of my face but he failed and I got quite upset that one stank of vomit and tried to clean it with hand soap i n the bathroom (big mistake)
Anyway - I know i should be proud that what I write gets people talking but a lot of me wishes that It was just entertainment... I wouldnt get so nervous then!
On the plus side i got to hear Lucy's play "youths" which I really, genuinely loved and annother one called "gods" which seems so different form stuff the guy usually writes... so much better!!!