Friday, December 01, 2006

I'm a Fucking Stupid Wanker


I really am and I'm the first person to admit it. Talk about fucking stupid, I have managed to fuck up my Tripod... Really, I've screwed myself by imagining a 5 next to a 1 and creating 15th december submission deadline date... how dumb am I?

Anyway its the first today and im rushing and printing and trying to get it in and wondering if i should email them or what? I'm gonna just send it and hope they still consider me... I mean it's £200 if they do like it and I'm begining to starve, it's not fucking funny, I'm really becoming the poor starving writer, perhaps I'll die in the snow selling fucking matches.

Well it's printed now in the extortinate internet cafe, because my printer and my computer are "having a moment" and that leaves me feeling very unimpressed... I'm really not doing too well in keeping myself grounded and sorted and not running away with the faires.

Oh yeah, just while I remember, a big up to Morph for getting his play "God's" put on by LUT (non bitter) :)

And tonight smokescreen are playing the music cafe and I'm supposed to be going out to the fanclub and all I want to do is hang out with Angie 'cos I never get to see her anymore and I really feel that I need to spend some time with her. Dear Reader (oo err! gone a bit Jane Eyre there!), You must appreciate that Angie and I have rarely spent much time appart since we were 11, and we met when we were 7 so it's a weird close-ness thing. She 100% does my head in but she and Lucy H (similar situation) are the closest thing I have to family....

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